struggling with guilt, but receiving redemption
coming back to the states has been great. getting to see all my friends and family again has been really good for this lonely soul. school has started up full swing and my schedule is pretty full. full with things i really truly love like veritas and adapted ice skating and small groups. getting to attend church each week has been oh so good for my weary self. especially when Keith and Dave aren't buffering over a weak wifi connection (: i moved into a different house with three really awesome ladies. my room is slowly but surely coming together. classes are intense, but i'm learning none the less. spending time with friends and luke has been awesome. the weather has been pretty stinking great here in Missouri and i'm super thankful for that. basically everything is going great and i don't have much to complain about. except, i've been struggling. and struggling hard. with lies and guilt and shame and regret. with bitterness and sorrow and frustration